THE OTHER SIDE OF SOMEDAY

Living life right NOW.

“Once upon a time…” Was a long time ago.

“Someday my prince will come.” Is a very nice sentiment but he’s not here yet so there is no use pining over him.

Lately my life has been a heterogeneous mixture of living in the past and anticipating the future.

As a single, 22-year-old recent college graduate, whose real “big girl job” doesn’t start till February such a concoction is completely expected. I’m young, educated, about to travel across the world and pursue my dreams, I’m at the top of my prime, right?

You would think that, but no, no and another emphatic no.

Truth is I have just been through some of the most depressing couple months of my short life in which I found myself victim of my own self-pity, self-loathing, self-doubt and, well, laziness. To sum it up, I had a series of events and failures that all added up together to equal one unpleasant, blonde, 5’3 and a quarter, 22-year-old. Of course, on the outside it would have been difficult to tell, since like most humans, I have learned to art of canvassing my emotions. My soul was starting to deteriorate and if it weren’t for divine intervention, through a series of unconventional ways, Jesus got a hold of my heart once again, dragged me up from the mire and set me on the right path. Just like he promised. I sure do love him.

I use the term unconventional because Jesus got a hold of me through a pop song which is something Paul of Tarsus and St. Augustine never experienced. Conventional would be through dreams or visions or even an angelic visitation. A pop song is definitely venturing out of that genre but is still effective.

I enjoy the music of Sara Bareilles and I had just put a few of her songs on my iPod and began to listen to them on one of my long commutes to work. The song is “Gonna Get Over You” which, as you can guess from the title, is a song about the aftermath of a break up. My divine revelation didn’t occur until the bridge of the song when I heard the line, “I’ll be alright, once I’ve found the other side of someday.”

And then it hit me, I have been expecting someday all my life. We all do it. You know, “Someday when I graduate…” and “Someday when I get married…” and Someday when I have kids…” and Someday when the kids are out of the house…” it doesn’t end until we die.

It may not be very profound but I am going to stop living in “Someday” because right now, more than ever, is all we have. It is all that we’ve been given to make the most of. I believe that Jesus didn’t just die so we could be with him in heaven, but to be with him right now. He came to give us life to the full and told us not to worry. But what do most of us do? Fill our lives with busyness and deadlines that we are worried about.

This is of course not to say that we shouldn’t care about our deadlines or the future, but I am going to seriously examine the stock I put my time into.

I also have always loved to write and have always said that someday I would give it a try. Well that someday is today.

Yes, that last sentence was cheesy.

But it’s true.

And I love cheese. But that’s beside the point.

Herein and hence fourth I begin my blog. It is the story of me and of my revelations, simple though they may be. This will hopefully get a whole lot more interesting starting in February when I start a new life on a different corner of the globe. But I don’t have February yet, I have today.

What are you going to do?